This has been a difficult road.
Trust is a hard thing to come by. A word, with so few letters.. and so much weight to it. One thing I have learned the hard way recently, is who to trust with what, and how.
A heavy part of a support system relies on someone who can listen to you with out bias or judgements. Someone who can bite their lip and hold their reservations- their opinions- their beliefs.
And just be there. Just exist for a moment, for you.
I confided in a support person the other night about some heavy situations I was grappling with. Fear for my safety was the only thing on my mind. The other person proceeded to launch into a heavy speech about “I should have known” and at that point, I laid down the phone while they rattled on endlessly.
Five minutes later, I picked up the phone.
I never called the person back. Not because I don’t care about them..
But because I care about myself.